trapped

i think they only love me whenever i do something "good".. or whenever i adhere to whatever they are in favor of..

this relationship is so materialistic.. everything seems to be negotiable.

good grades = something tangible

and that's it.

in crucial moments, every favor.. every deed is laid down before you.. and of course, as expected.. guilt and conscience will flood your system.. thus making you surrender.. its as if you have no choice but to return what is given to you.. or even exceed that.

sheeesh. so much for unconditional love..