helpless

you might think that these are new born puppies.

but NOOOO!

these are mice. our helper found them when she was rummaging outside our house. the litter literally fell on her when she, by chance, disturbed it. she brushed the brood into a dust pan and poured filthy water on it. when she showed me this, i suddenly had this urge of grabbing a bottle of muriatic acid, liquid sosa, alcohol, kerosene, or even just my baby cologne. i don't want to kill them. i just want to see the effect of chemicals on their pink and hairless bodies. i was also thrilled on the thought that i will witness them squirm and suffer. and besides, if they die, i wouldn't be bothered that much because sooner or later they'll turn into fat icky harmful rats. killing them would even let my mother have another reason to be proud of me. hehe. but then, God whispered and said that even if they would grow up chewing on our things, they still deserve to live... normally. i also, in some way, believe in karma. hehe. i don't want to be oppressed when i'm totally helpless.

NEXT.

this is a dead bird. i found this under the table in our terrace.

its beautiful. <3>

i just realized.. in some way, i'm fond of little helpess and harmless creatures. :) bwahahahaha!