goodbye summer fling

I know its useless if I still write something about you… about what happened.. about us.. if ever there was “us”.

You thought that nothing happened.… that there was not even a single spark. I guess you always assumed that you’re worthless in my eyes and that I never really give a fuck about you… or so you said. Fuck you.. you never really listened to me.

But you know what, I did. I did give a shit about you.
You are (.. or were) not worthless. You were something to me.
You were my summer fling.

I never believed when you said that you think that I am taking this too lightly… that you know that I’m not affected at all. I know and I feel that you know in the soles of your heart that I was affected.. I know you know that I reciprocated your feelings... I just don’t fucking understand why you had to invent those asshole statements and excuses about me not connecting with you. shit you. It just made things worse you know. You’re just too scared… that’s all. I have nothing against your cowardice. But the fact that you never really told the truth makes me want to kill you. (sorry :P)

When I was with you, I pretended that I was senseless. And fuck you because you took advantage of that. Just because I said it everything was okay doesn’t mean you could just drop me like that.

Okay. Enough. I’m forgetting this.

I guess.. we were just a phase. Let’s just pass the time.

If ever you will come across this entry.. Let me take this chance to apologize. I also had my shortcomings. I always had that happy façade when in fact, not everything is alright. I’m sorry. Also, pardon me for the curses… though I never really said it to you directly. I can’t help it. I have a fucking filthy mouth.. :P

The rain is starting to fall real hard. Let it drain way down.. together with what we felt.. what we had..